Hey @creative_writer i'm so sorry you feel this way, those are some heavy feelings to sit with. 

You are so worthy of love, even though you brain might be telling you otherwise, those thoughts don't reflect your worthiness. Your thoughts are not facts or truth, they're simply little statements that we put value into - and you have the power to categorise them - it might not be as easy to do now, which is totally okay - i'm sitting with you regardless 💗

is there anyone you can talk to right now, anyone at home? are you feeling safe at the moment?