Inpatient with an eating disorder

[outlander]

hearing you @The-red-centaur not sure what might be most helpful for you but listening if that helps

[The-red-centaur]

I just can't eat anymore. I can't do it. I tried to do it but I can't deal with it. I want to recover but it just too hard.

[The-red-centaur]

@outlander I'm so scared.

[outlander]

having an ED is hard @The-red-centaur recovery can also be a frightening prospect esp when this is the life weve known for so long.

are there any programs you could do as an outpatient or a psychologist that could come to the hospital your a currently and help you get started with it?

[The-red-centaur]

@outlander there's no ED treatment in Tassie for 18+ even outpatient. I'm moving to x after hospital since I won't be able to find a house here. There, outpatient treatment looks possible. Inpatient is either Sydney or Melbourne. They will never transfer me anywhere so that's totally out of the question. I guess I have to do this alone and try to recover when I'm finished rehab. For now I'm getting really sick and I'm scared but eating and recovery is too hard.

[Former-Member]

Good morning @The-red-centaur, sounds like a hard night. Just checking in as to how you're travelling today? Any music on the playlist this morning?

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member today is too hard....

Today's song.... trying to be pos. 

https://youtu.be/TlPr0nzCZ58

[The-red-centaur]

I HAD DAY LEAVE TODAY!! I got out of hospital and got my haircut, did some shopping and played Magic with some friends. I'm so tired but I had an amazing day. Also managed a full meal for lunch in town.

[The-red-centaur]

Im so stressed about Christmas....I'm going out (yay) but foooooodddd fk. She's cooking so much for me and I wanna cry rn coz I sing know how much is in anything and I'll engorge on dessert. I should have said no.





Why can't I just enjoy myself and not be so obsessed about food. Recovery is too fuckhard.

[The-red-centaur]

https://youtu.be/vN0qJExuIQ0