Centaurs attempt at a new life

[NatureLover]

@The-red-centaur  I'm so glad you have your art as a way to express yourself, and the forums as a way to feel heard. I'm sorry about your current situation, it sounds scary and stressful 😞 Am wishing so much that you can feel a spark of hope 💛

[Former-Member]

G 👀 D   M🔅R N I N G!  @The-red-centaur  - really wish for you a better day today. Hope my previous post didn't upset you, they took it down sorry. You keep drawing, they're great!  Love to see some Australian Outback themes in your style. You could illustrate books professionally you know. Take care, hope you can sit outside a while today 🔆🌳🔆🌳

Hi @@Appleblossom   @@Anastasia    @@Zoe   @@NatureLove   👋😊👍

[The-red-centaur]

Thanks @Former-Member . My art is one of the very few things keeping mr around. I didn't see the previous post so please don't worry.

We are rarely allowed outside. The outside area is always locked wtih it open just an hour or so every few days. and the last few days there's been landscapers in it so it hasn't been open. And I refuse to go to the smoking courtyard.

There has been some cool OT activities during weekdays though, which is when I'm able to paint and do other artistic stuff, like making a bag and while I did that I spilt the fabric paint on my shorts so I painted a design on them too lol. I also spend a bunch of time colouring and I've been getting staff and other patients into it.

[The-red-centaur]

Update:
It's been a month since my initial attempt. 2 weeks at main hospital and 2 weeks in this psych ward. I feel like it's not getting anywhere. I'm more suicidal and hopeless....I feel like I can't keep trying. I somehow manage to shower and eat and drink and occasionally get involved with OT and keep busy with art. But I feel so empty mad hopeless and like it's all not worth it and i should give up even more....

[saltandpepper]

Good morning @The-red-centaur I really like the sunset painting too, feels very powerful. Your room is looking good, you have done a great job 👍

It was really good reading your post about the activities you've been doing and getting busy making things. Nice work with the pants too haha Reading that post I felt so hopeful, such a positive voice echoed through the words. I'm really impressed at your efforts @The-red-centaur 

With regards to your most recent post and beginning to feel hopeless again--I recognise this pattern. I do this. Our brains do this. When we spend so long feeling geared towards misery, it comes as a shock to our brains when things start turning around. Being productive, doing things that bring joy, engaging with people, you're developing new neuron connections. When we do this, our brains do a bit of a system check and try to gear us back to those neuron connections that are well established--the miserable ones. They have been prominent within our brains and anything new is seen as a threat. So, it is natural and part of the healing process to go from feeling good, to feeling hopeless. Try to recognise it for what it is and refocus your efforts on those positives. The more you do those things, the stronger those new pathways become. Take a screenshot of your previous post about the activities you've been doing, the painting, making a bag, working with staff and other patients. Screenshot it and save it as a backgroung on your phone or if possible print it out and tack on your wall. Use it as a reminder to redirect your attention and keep developing those new neuron pathways.

Please stay safe today my friend

[The-red-centaur]

@saltandpepper the constant state of my bed lol.....

[saltandpepper]

👍 @The-red-centaur got a few supplies there, not much room for you though haha

[Anastasia]

Wow @The-red-centaur you have a talent my friend!!!!! I am in awe.

I have a similar colouring in book. I'll see if I can find my pic to share with you.

🤜🤛🙂

Hi to @saltandpepper @Former-Member @NatureLover @Emelia8 and all here 🙏

[Anastasia]

Here it is @The-red-centaur 

I want to fill in background light blue. I moved from this yo diamond painting, which I haven't touched for too long.

I wish I had your natural talent to draw. I recall playing Pictionary and it was rare my drawings were guessed hahaha. 

Looking forward to seeing more of your work. 

@saltandpepper 👋

[TAB]

Thanks for sharing @The-red-centaur 😸 re pics People trying to help you .
You have done this before.
Sure things will get better for You 😬