@tyme I'd thought I'd reply to you here rather than on the 'tism thread. 

I'm not doing ok. I spent majority of last week in the psych ward again. 

The market never went ahead and my depression just got deeper. The psychiatrist increased my meds. 

The increase in meds means im sleeping better, which is a huge relief. 

 But the depression really isn't easing, I've been trying so hard to do everything to pull me myself out of it. But it's just not working. In hospital I had to accept that sometimes things just suck. I have been trying to be compassionate to myself, understanding its hard and I'm depressed and sometimes i just have to wait it out and lean on my supports.