Your hyacinths sound lovely...I love colour. @Dimity 

I really hope you aren't suffering financial abuse, as I know your finances are a problem and more money would really make a difference to your life. 

Could you try running your financial situation by another helpline counsellor maybe, to see if they also think it might be financial abuse? There is also the  Ethics Helpline , run by The Ethics Centre...

So your helper has had her last session with you now? That leaves you a bit adrift, maybe...I'm sorry to hear.

Sending warm hugs... 💚