Hi @chibam thanks for dropping by. I understand your confusion, it's hard to communicate it all clearly.

I can't speak for everyone, but I can't say I enjoy feeling misery either. I'm not sure anyone does really.

I understand that some people don't experience depression to the chronic degree that I do, where it is a daily battle every day of life. My depression is not something that will get better, but this is not true for everyone, perhaps this is what's causing the confusion. I see what you're saying, that bad feelings are bad, so we want to fix them. But for me, the bad feelings aren't something that can be fixed. So while I can see that if someone is going through a period of feeling depressed, a period meaning it will pass, then my approach won't make sense for them at all. And as you say, would be a harmful perspective.

For me, in my instance, my condition is chronic and it can be managed but managing it doesn't mean I am free from it. I still experience severe bouts of depression despite being medicated and seeing a psychologist regularly. I also experience times where I can function quite well too. But no matter what, depression, for me is always there, always. For me, adopting the general societal view that my condition will one day, with treatment, resolve, is painful for me. When I am suffering through an episode like I have been this week, the concept that despite getting the help I am still not "fixed" is harmful to me.

I certainly don't enjoy it, I wouldn't be on the forums trying to pull my ass of this shitty week if I enjoyed it. I'm just trying to shift my perspective so that I'm not beating myself up for being the way I am. For me, I try to see my depression as part of me. Because being rid of it isn't possible for me, but managing it is. I understand it's not the common view, and as we're chatting I see it's definitely not a helpful view for those experiencing a depressing period in life. But maybe it's helpful for people who struggle with complex trauma and chronic conditions to know that we're not wrong or bad because despite everything there are always days when we can't fu*king do anything. 

Again, I'm really  not trying to upset anyone here, and I hope I've been able to explain myself better this time

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