@The-red-centaur

I hate hospitals too, so I understand. But as @Faith-and-Hope as said, you might need urgent support. There's no shame in going there, you have as much need as anyone else does. If you haven't got a friend to take you then call an ambulance.

I get the feeling that you don't want to live this way anymore and although it will take time to deal with all the issues around it, taking the first step to taking care of your physical health is important.

I'm also with you walking along side you. 💜 ❤️