You are in a very unsettled place right now @The-red-centaur.  I know when that happens for me, when there is a lot going wrong all at once, I tend to get into a "why me.... ??" state of mind.  

Try to take things one step at a time.  Things don't always go the way we think they will, but they do go step by step, so wait for the steps and see where they lead to ....

If the first step goes differently than you thought, then all the steps after that one are on a new path.  Maybe it's the second step that goes in a different direction ....

Step by step Hon.   Breathe .....