It must feel like everything is going wrong for you right now @The-red-centaur - hearing about this lesion would have been a huge shock and it will take some time to sink in for you. The positives in this situation are you have meds to help with the lesion and although they counteract your antipsychotic meds they are being increased to help you also.

The big positive you have is that you still have your transition to look forward to. The meeting with the psych came about earlier than you thought it would so the process is underway. That is a great thing for you.