The butterfly is beautiful @Teej 

I know I have come a long way but there is still a long way to go. Feeling a bit stuck today but trying to just sit with that feeling and not read anymore into it. Some days are going to have moments like that and even whole days - and sometimes when you are in the middle of the muddle you can't see too far past that moment. I am learning to recognise those moments more and know that I have to wait until they pass.

I laughed today - a proper laugh not a pretend because that is what is expected type laugh. My face actually hurt - shows how long it has been since I laughed. So there was that one moment today where I actually checked in with myself and gave myself permission to laugh - and it was a good feeling.

It was nice to read that you got out yourself today with your Mum. You are doing things @Teej and as small as they are - they are moments for you too. It is just those days when nothing seems to make sense or feel like it is going our way where we break down - hopefully. like me. you can have more good times inbetween those horrible days.

Love and hugs @Teej