@The-red-centaur The idea I had a week or so ago (which I then forgot about) was to scour your older posts for a time when you were in a more positive mindset, so I could then tag you and remind you of a time when you were feeling stronger.

YOU HAVE SURVIVED SO MUCH @The-red-centaur and you do not deserve to be in any more pain. You deserve kindness, compassion, and the chance to work through all this pain.

You have shown so much strength in dealing with a number of road blocks throughout life. You have made difficult decisions and taken incredible leaps forward and shown undeniable bravery--I won't say anything specific to avoid triggers. But I'm in awe at how you have handled such difficult times, you are courageous.

I am hesitant to mention this, because I don't want to bring anything up that may distress you. But, I've read through some of your older posts (in a completely non stalkery way) and noticed you mention your Dad a couple of times in a positive light. I don't know if he is close by or in another state, or if you haven't spoken to him in a while, but, I'm going to beg and plead with you to reach out to him. Please @The-red-centaur give him a call. Let him in. I wish that forum land could provide the support you need and deserve, but it's not the same as having someone there with us in person. You deserve to have someone with you right now--yeah of course all of us on the forum will be here, I'll still be here too. But please, please give your Dad a call for me, please.