Thankyou

[Former-Member]

This is a message to say thankyou to everyone that has supported me since I have been in this forum. Everyone has been amazing and so welcoming. The amount of support i have received here in the short period I've been here is more than I've received throughout my entire life from professionals or so called friends.

I'm sorry to those I've upset in anyway, it's never been my intention but I've been hurt so much that my brain just freaks out and reacts to protect me from being hurt again. 

I'm sorry that I'm such a bother and that I'm a burden on everyone, I try so hard to be positive and put on a brave face so I don't bring others down but it's just another thing that I fail at. 

I feel like I shouldn't be here in this world, cos I'm never going to fit in or be accepted. I'm battling myself every minute of everyday at the moment to just try to stay alive and exist but I don't know what for. 

But i just wanted to say thankyou to everyone who has checked in on me, sat with me and chatted to me about anything and everything,  I truly appreciate every connection I've made here so far and I hope I can continue to do so. 

[The-red-centaur]

No. 

You are not alone, or a  burden, and it would not be the same without you. 

@Former-Member i need you too. 

I've been where you are at and tried countless times. I'm here to show it can get easier. We get dealt shit hands, im sorry. I'm sorry life isn't kind to you. 

But you are worth fighting for. I'm going try to fight for you, I know you can't for yourself right now, so I'm here ok. 

[Dk5]

wow you need to lighten up abit on yourself, you could be doing more harm them good, by putting yourself down

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur thankyou. I really don't feel like I deserve to be here and i truly feel like I'm such a burden on everyone both here and in real life. I'm really struggling to fight that battle myself right now and I'm so thankful to have the support of you and everyone here. I'm just sorry that I'm always causing problems. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member you aren't a problem here. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur i think the moderators that have to constantly check in with me would disagree with you there. I'm just sorry to everyone for being so annoying. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member it's their job. I'm sure they don't mind. 

They have done that for me a lot of times in past. And now I forward their belief in me and their support to others.

I'm sorry, but I'm still really sleepy, my words aren't coming out properly and my mind isn't making sense. I'm so tired this morning, even though I slept in til 7. I'm here, I just might not make complete sense lol. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur i just feel bad for them.

I'm exhausted but sleep has been almost impossible, I've had 2 hours of very broken sleep. I hope you can have a restful day. I probably don't make much sense half the time cos I find that my hands can't type as fast as my brain is ticking over. Thankyou for being here and chatting to me 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member i get it. I'm sorry you are so tired. I can't imagine how you are feeling rn. 

Sundays are my rest day, I try to get some housework done, but I don't think I'll do anything else. I'll probably bomb out on the couch later and maybe finish the colouring in I started the other day. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur i don't know how I'm still functioning although I guess I'm not really. 

I'm glad it's your rest day, hopefully you can get your housework done early and then just relax. I'm hoping to do some more of my colouring today aswell.