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We were supposed to have some news last night but it didn't come. I think a nurse may have taken a guess that a doctor would be in during the evening and either said they'd come in like it was a definite thing or it was taken like a definite thing. The waiting is so hard ๐Ÿ˜”

@Teej thank you for your lovely message. I am really glad you got in to respite. I love your lobelia. I have planted some in one of my hanging baskets and it's an incredible burst of purply/blue. I couldn't remember what they were called until I saw yours.

Thanks for your otter hugs also @Faith-and-Hope ๐Ÿ’—

Just got the notification that you're up @Teej. Nice surprise to see you. Are you usually up early?

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So sorry about the wait @CheerBear, that is really hard. I went through something like you but not quite as touch and go last November when my dad had heart surgery. Itโ€™s agonising during the wait for info. Like you, I couldnโ€™t go in for about 4 days because I was unwell. Crossing everything for you. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป

 

No im very rarely awake just now. I have had a rocky nights sleep. I will go back again for some more sleep later. 

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Days are so long at the moment, like I imagine you would have experienced then @Teej. They had an MRI and CT yesterday, both which were pushed for quickly, so today surely they'll know. My person wants me to go in with them today but a lot of me doesn't want to for a few reasons. I am not sure I'm over my cough/cold enough anyway. I'll see how they're going when they get up and work it out.

Hugs for the rocky night. How are you feeling after yesterday? Sounds like a big day.

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Are you up for some distracting news @CheerBear? Itโ€™s kind of positive and not sure if you are needing a distraction. 

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Yes please. I would really love to hear if you're up to sharing @Teej.

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Yeah. I must say I was blessed during that time that my brother flew over and stayed at their house so I had time to deal with everything the best way possible. He took the brunt of looking after mum. @CheerBear. I have to say it change him for the better. Ones mortality can have a profound effect I think. 

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Ok. Yesterday I had lunch out with old best friend and the friend I have thankfully in my life. The three of us were always close. This is the one who was a victim and who I have have been grieving and feeling so much regret for @CheerBear

We ended up talking openly about it and disclosing stuff after 7 years. I started crying before I could speak and she was so surprised at my emotion. I got to tell her how sorry I was and how many regrets I have for bringing him back into her life. 

We talked about all things including asking her if she remembered the anniversary date (this is someone who doesnโ€™t remember any dates whatsoever). She did but freaked out when I told her it was seven years. It was a huge step for both of us. Itโ€™s not going to bring us back as close as we were but itโ€™s cleared the air for maybe some healing for both of us. 

Just tagging @Faith-and-Hope because sheโ€™s put up with this saga for years too. 

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That's huge @Teej in heaps of ways. I think it's really brave that you were able to do that. Space and a chance for healing is always good โค

Is that part of your rocky night last night? I know for me that emotional conversations like that, even when they have been posituve, can stir things up inside.

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Maybe a little @CheerBear. I think itโ€™s also hormonal. I woke up with night sweats and itโ€™s hard to go back to sleep. Gotta love perimenpause. Just you wait ๐Ÿ˜˜

I think last night when I got home I had the million miles an hour thing going on replaying it all.  I want to write a letter putting things down without emotion brain fogging it all. 

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Lol I just read my post and giggled. I saw my perimenpause and checked out the meaning of peri. One of them was "aboutโ€. I think about - pause in men sums it up nicely. Also perimenopause sucks ๐Ÿ˜œ @CheerBear