Centaurs attempt at a new life

[The-red-centaur]

Morning my friends....

I'm not really ok...it doesn't matter tho.
I'm hoping to see psychs today and just tell em how it is however. I can't do this anymore. I've been here 3 weeks and 2 weeks at the other hospital. Things are worse not better. What's the point. This is all just a load of hogwash and pointless. I need out or a hopeful direction forward. Or I will try to KMS again, one to one nurse or not.

I'm sorry you all have to put up with this. You are trying to help and I'm just too far. Give up on me. Like everyone else has. Give up like i have.

[Anastasia]

Nup, not giving up @The-red-centaur 

Sitting with you holding your hand. Thick and thin, that's what friends do.

You'll di it for me one day I am sure.

Love and hugs buddy 🤗

[pamplemousse]

hey @The-red-centaur Sorry to hear things are so tough this morning, it's really good to hear you're seeing your psych today. I've sent you an email just checkin in.

[saltandpepper]

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@The-red-centaur wrote:
I need out or a hopeful direction forward.

 or a hopeful direction forward

there is still hope @The-red-centaur its there, even if it's just a little ray of hope. Yeah this is a very shitty place to be in right now, but you have been in a healthier head space, and you will be again. If you give yourself time to work through the pain and come out the other side of it. You deserve that chance my friend.

Glad you're going to lay it all out on the table with the psychs today, that's a good move. No need to hide anything. Just let it all out

[NatureLover]

@The-red-centaur  sorry you're sick with a cold/flu, and super sorry that you don't see much hope...like @saltandpepper  said, there is a spark of hope, and I'm wishing it grows. You deserve help and support and to have some good things in life...you have suffered greatly and still are 😞

[Anastasia]

Still here @The-red-centaur 

I brought you some morning tea. I'm having an almond milk latte and fig slice. Delicious.

Would you like some?

@NatureLover @saltandpepper plenty for you too 💞

[SJT63]

@Anastasia very glad you didn't invite me in on the almond latte.... ewww.... and hope you are OK.

@NatureLover @saltandpepper @Anastasia glad we are all  hanging in here for our friend @The-red-centaur 

Centaur be honest with the pdocs.... what have you got to lose?

Every breath you take is one breath closer to turning the corner.

Keep breathing.

xoxo

[NatureLover]

@The-red-centaur  bertter get in quick or I'll eat all of your

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@Anastasia wrote:

almond milk latte and fig slice. Delicious.

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[The-red-centaur]

@NatureLover @SJT63 @Anastasia @saltandpepper @TAB 

Thanks for the kindness and care yesterday and over the weekend. I honestly didn't deserve it. I did a lot of 'silly' things yesterday, and even on top of a temp from the flu I still refused meds because 'I deserved missery and suffering,and deserved to die',of which I tried a few times to suicide too.

Eh. 

Idk this morning I still feel awful, but no temp and no imminent plans to enact SI or SH. So I guess it's an improvement from the last few days. Getting a sleep not riddled with nightmares probably really helped that. 

I was supposed to have an interview with an accommodation provider today but cancelled it due to being sick so I guess I'll find out when that's rescheduled to this afternoon.

[NatureLover]

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@The-red-centaur wrote:

Idk this morning I still feel awful, but no temp and no imminent plans to enact SI or SH. So I guess it's an improvement from the last few days. Getting a sleep not riddled with nightmares probably really helped that. 

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@The-red-centaur  this sounds good 🙂

Good luck getting accommodation in the interview, whenever it's rescheduled to...