A long rave

[Mazarita]

It doesn't need to be absorbed all at once, @CheerBear. I can imagine how relieved you are. It also gave me a kind of security I never had before in my life. The reduction of stress is why I wish I'd got it at a younger age. I probably should have had it since my 20s really, with the crohns ripping my insides apart and the as-yet-undiagnosed bipolar making everything a thousand times more difficult than it already was. Though I understand your hesitations about it all, I see it as nothing but good news for you. 

[CheerBear]

Maybe some time to absorb it will help @Mazarita. Thank you for reminding me of that.

I can see how applying earlier rather than later on could have really helped you. I tried so hard and have been since the big bang, to do everything I could without it and I messed myself up trying. This is like the ultimate test/form of acceptance. I can't do what I want and what I need, and I don't do "can't do" well. I live in "I can" land but unfortunately that "can" only exists in an incredibly limited bubble I try to live within. This whole process on a personal level, has been about recognising and examining that.

This is good news. Really, really good news. I can survive now and maybe with time, as much time as I need, and support that I will fight for with the NDIS if I have to, I can expand that bubble some more. Maybe without the stress and pressure in some ways and with some security, that bubble will grow too.

Biggest hugs and hugest thanks for being here this morning. I so appreciate you.

[Mazarita]

I'm so happy to be here to share the news with you, @CheerBear. Sounds like you might be taking some time to yourself now, and I should probably head towards bed again. Hugs again and enjoy this as much as you can!  

[CheerBear]

I'm going to sit with these feelings and my coffee for a while and absorb it all.

I had a feeling that letter would come through in the tiny hours (just in weeks/months not right now). How I might process and manage that has been going around my head so much. I was hoping that it may coincide with a morning you were online as I knew you'd get it, whatever the outcome was. I'm so thankful you were here. This will be a morning I won't forget.

Thank you again. I hope sleep is good for you @Mazarita. Big hugs and sweet dreams xx

[eth]

Good morning @Mazarita @CheerBear @PeppiPatty @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @The-red-centaur and anyone else around today.  Just wanted to drop off some warm wishes to all here before I go back and catch up on everyone's news since lunch time yesterday.  Sounds like a couple of you have had good news and a few of you are not doing so well.  Hope today is turning into a better one for everyone.

My psychologist also cancelled for today (she's sick) and my support worker has been stopped  and the coordinator of supports couldn't come this morning either so I've got a day of no comitments after all.  Will probably spend some time looking for support workers on-line and checking out the NDIS myplace portal on the mygov website, but not up to it yet.  I would have slept in if I'd known the CoS wasn't coming at 9 as arranged.  May do some more snoozing at some stage.

[eth]

Hi @PeppiPatty just caught up on your big decision.  I'm hoping things improve with Mr in time and you are able to defer so that you have a chance to continue your uni course at some stage.

@The-red-centaur  sending you strength and courage.  We care about you here.

@Mazarita  sounds like yesterday improved for you.  I'm glad to hear that.  And hoping you feel up to going to the gallery opening tomorrow night - I know you felt better for getting there last time.  Hope today is good to you.

@CheerBear  WOOHOO about being approved!  It's great news and I agree with @Mazarita that it will likely make life much better for you.  I'm on it too, have been for several years.  I understand having mixed feelings about it tho'.  But I firmly believe the pro's outweigh the con's.  Knowing it's coming in means you can actually budget rather than just having to pay the next most important bill.  And perhaps you can now get rent assistance too.  Sitting with you and ready to hug you or celebrate with you as the news sinks in.

[eth]

Hi to you too @Exoplanet.  Sorry I don't always remember all the names I want to tag.  How's today going for you so far?

[CheerBear]

Hi @eth. Sorry to hear that your plans have had to change for today. It frustrates me when that happens, even though I understand things sometimes don't work out the way we plan.

Hope you can go gently with the search for support workers. It all sounds potentially pretty overwhelming. Wish I could have a look and a talk it through with you!

Thank you for your understanding with the mixed feelings I have today also. I feel a bit all over the place and really weird. I don't know what this feeling/s is so I'm just sitting and trying to work out how to process, if there's anyway to do that. I know it is relief - enormous relief and a huge stress will not be there anymore. It should feel really great but it doesn't just yet. It feels very jumbly but it'll sink in eventually though surely! Thank you for the hug and the woohoo. I have a quiet 'I think I can woohoo at this' maybe sneaking in 😊

[eth]

@CheerBear what you are feeling is similar to how I felt about getting NDIS approval so I understand it.  It's like the end of a struggle but the start of a new, potentially scary, phase of life.  There will be an adjustment period.  There will be change.  There is the unknown vs. the known you  have been used to.

When I first got the DSP I was mostly just relieved as it was more than the Sole Parent Pension plus Carer Allowance that I had previously been getting.  But I was still also very nervous about learning to work with a new budget and a new system of reporting requirements etc.  

As I said, sitting with you and hoping you can feel my support xx 

[CheerBear]

Definitely feeling the support and the understanding @eth, thank you. It means so much to have ❤