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[The-red-centaur]

It's been that many days... I still wish I was dead.

My feet are never gonna heal. I may be in hospital another few months still and since I tried to KMS again on Christmas they won't leave me by myself. 

I hurt myself in front of my nurse today. I just can't deal. I keep seeing flashbacks from that day. I see it vividly ,myself x....and then screaming in hospital. 

[PurplePanda2]

Sorry to hear things are so difficult for you tonight @The-red-centaur. I have sent you an email to check in 

[The-red-centaur]

https://youtu.be/L8NznCl8XpM

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur  Hi hun am with you through this. Not going anywhere my friend.  Love always peaxxx

[The-red-centaur]

@greenpea 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 I can't do this.

[Former-Member]

Hi @The-red-centaur - it sounds like things are feeling tough for you at the moment. Great that you have support in here too. 

Could you perhaps check in with a helpline or the staff at the hospital - are there any things you can do to help distract yourself, I know you enjoy sharing music and the thread you started was great, maybe sharing more tunes you like in there could help? 

[Appleblossom]

@The-red-centaur 

I cant imagine the pain you were in.

I did not think I would ever find a way through my pain, and it is still around, but I have found a way to make life bearable.  All I can do is hold a hand out and hope you find a way for YOU.

[The-red-centaur]

I don't think things will be bearable....ever. Especially with the pain I'm constantly in now. @Appleblossom I don't even know if I can walk.

[frog]

I'm sorry @The-red-centaur 

It sounds so, so painful

No answers, but thinking of you.

[Appleblossom]

@The-red-centaur 

Posting pictures trying to understand your name.  Hope you think they are alright.