when is it time for hospital

[STORMGRL101]

@outlander It sounds like hospital might be a good idea to get that bit of extra support right now to help deal with your intense urges. Do you have a local mh community team you could call who can advise you on what to do? Or just present at ed. its ok to need that bit of extra support when things become too much. Thinking of you ❤hugs 

[outlander]

@Baboo i have no one and i dont kow if i can go

im too scared of judgement and id disowned even more by family more than what i already have and it would cause so much trouble with them already

im trying to look for option i jsut dont know what else to do

[Former-Member]

Outlander
I understand,today and at times I am severely distressed,it's a awful pain no one can understand.For me it's the moments of reality that my life is hopeless,,,I'm getting distressed typing this.If you feel you need to go to save your life do it.I have been there.Only you can make that decision.As for family, you are doing it for you.My family helped stuff me up then I feel they have delighted in me having a breakdown.

[outlander]

i dont know if i can go to hospital i jsut i dont know @Former-Member@STORMGRL101@Baboo@Former-Member

does anyone know of anything else that can be done besides being admitted to hospital but i think i need to do something if not tonight asap

[Former-Member]

Hi @outlander. A few times it's been out of my hands as emergency services have been called. A few times it was arranged with my mental health team as a planned visit. My therapist rang my son last time and told him to take me to ED but then got in contact with my mental health team so it was all documented when I went in. It's also on my safety plan as I have numerous attempts before requiring medical intervention in the past so the hospital has a record of this. Most my stays are short, just a few nights until SI subsides. This is through the public system. I'm not sure what to tell you but wanted to give you my experiences. I guess you know when you can't hold on any longer. When I've gone myself I had tried for a few days to stay safe and had rang suicide call back service three or four times a day for a few days until I was beyond helping myself and they helped me to know when to go. That was a long time ago. I hope this helps. 

[Queenie]

@outlander there is always the choice of paid (but heavily subsidised respite) available in most states through ARAFMI (google ARAFMI in your state and respite and it should come up). You do pay a small fee for accommodation but it is mainly to cover the cost of meals and activities. However, they may not allow you to stay if you have strong SH/SI ideation and urges until you are safer (this is because it is not meant as an acute mental health setting). Other than that, I would suggest packing a small overnight bag and calling 000 and explaining your situation and how you feel. I know family might lash out at you, but aren't they doing that already?

[Baboo]

can you make a safety plan with me tonight then instead of going to hospital? It would be you giving me your word you will be safe from yourself for this night. this will give us all time to support you to make a plan of how you will distract yourself until you can fall asleep

[outlander]

i cant 😞 😞

im too scared

@Queenie

my Gp, nurze and psychiatrist all ahve told me i should and i need to go to hoispital and this was before i got to this state of mind- ive gotten alot worse over th epast few days

[outlander]

ok @Baboo where do we start

[outlander]

Another day has gone
my mind keeps holding on
memeories of yesterday haunts me
but im trying not to let them defeat me
I struggle to live
yet I still continue to give

black are my wings
seared from a range of things
produce a fake smile
but is it worth while?

Fear of you and me
fear of others
thats invisible to see
now how can that be

im a lost soul
travelling but nowhere to go
lost with too mnay thoughts
too many that haunts

I cant pretend im ok anymore
I cant fake it, just shut that door
im hopeles, helpless and im scared ill never get better
my pain is killing me
I wish I could just be set free

locked in a prison with no escape
where my weary soul will reside
theres nothing left inside
the fate of my soul is long gone
for I have done too much wrong

the walls close me in
my pain sings
sings so loud but no one can hear

ive lsot my friends
what have I done
ive lost my family
where have I gone wrong
her voice got quieter
the nights got longer
fading away, just trudging through the day

this pain, this physical and emotional pain
theres nothing else I seem to gain
except this stupid stupid pain

ive fallen apart, im barely breathing
how can this heart keep beating
when theres no healing
a loneley girl with vacant stares
screaming inside but no one cares
my tears roll down but I cant make a sound
lonley am I in so many ways
lonley are the nights
loneley are the days

she sits alone
alone at home
where the screams are silent
but the mind is violent
her insecurities hid deepeningand they did indeed eat her alive

her face says happy
but her eyes say pain
thats just how it goes again

@STORMGRL101@Former-Member@Former-Member@Queenie@Former-Member