(not actually) Coping with things.

[The-red-centaur]

@NatureLover thanks. I'm hoping today is s better day. 

[The-red-centaur]

I'm really struggling this evening. Everything feels overwhelming.
I feel like hurting myself. I feel really stressed out. It's hard pushing through these thoughts. I haven't harmed for nearly 2 weeks, doesn't feel like much of an achievement though. Why does everything have to be this hard.
I went out today, like I do most saturdays it's just hard being social when there's just so much going on there. It hurts my head. Then I feel like it was all a failure and everything I did was a mistake. I can't even go out and have fun without this shit in my head. I hate it.

[NiteKat]

Hi @The-red-centaur 

I can hear the pain coming through your post. But not every thought is worthy of pushing back. Maybe its just ok to (sometimes) sit in the flow of the emotional tide rather than needing to have answers as to why. Its a very personal journey for you but you have support here. A virtual space is the second best thing! Let us know how safe you feel. Whenever that suits.

Regards

NiteKat (mod)

[The-red-centaur]

I don't feel safe tbh. I don't even know I'd I want to not do it.

[PrincessLettuce]

Hi @The-red-centaur ,

I'm sorry that things are hard right now.

I've sent you an email to check in, 

Please reach out to the @moderator 's if you need extra support.

- PrincessLettuce

[NatureLover]

Wow, @The-red-centaur , 2 weeks with no self harm, I'm really impressed, well done! 🙂

Well done also for going out to try to have fun despite the thoughts in your head, that is a victory too. 🙂👍

[RiverSeal]

Hey @The-red-centaur thought I'd check in on you how are you going today? Hope you got some rest overnight. Regards, RiverSeal

[The-red-centaur]

I didn't hurt myself and I got some sleep in the end @RiverSeal

Today is hard tho. My thoughts are worse than they were last night. Idk if I won't hurt myself tbh. But I've got lunch with a friend in an hour n half. Maybe that will lift my spirits.

[RiverSeal]

Hey, @The-red-centaur I'm glad you got some sleep last night. Great to hear you are going out to lunch with a friend and why don't you check in with me or another moderator later today and let us know how it goes? We'd love to hear how you are doing later! Take care RiverSeal 

[The-red-centaur]

My friend just rescheduled. Now what. ...