Hi Everyone
Is anyone else struggling a bit more today than any day of this 'festive' season to date?
For me, I know it's my chronic pain that is the kicker, but I tried my usual day and it was just that much different enough to feel ... difficult.
Recognised the excess pain level, and all the other difficulties, early so aborted but still feeling it.
I wrote about a 'reckoning' being more than likely, but didn't expect some of it to start already. Every time I can't reach pain suppression, the difficult thoughts crank up to constantly nagging levels. Makes merely passing time bloody difficult. Especially when I need to blast out the noise to prevent my high-density scenario from suffocating me with it's noise.
An astounding ability I ***sometimes***, unreliably, have in these situations is to somehow fling an imaginative but random idea out there, as a means of coping, then potentially chase it up if I can. I don't consider this a particularly fabulous 'skill' or any such psychobabble label someone (who usually isn't suffering a mental health-impacted existence themselves, never has) might throw at it. Is just survival and I want more than that. But, given right now I want to just cry and scream at the fundamental lack of fairness in my health scenario, it's an alternative, at least.
At present, that imagination (or, probably, better known as ingenuity perhaps) is taking the form of what may be an 'off topic' query for this thread. But, as I'm new to these forums (and they're a bit weird relatively to other forums / forum software) and it's really very hard to think right now, I'll just pop it out there. Please be gentle, mods, if I'm transgressing as I have rejection sensitivities you wouldn't believe.
I just want to ask ... does anyone, if you have some sort of NDIS scenario (utterly bloody well useless though it ***may be***), have a 'support worker' who is available today? Is that something I am potentially missing out on? If so, and there's really very good reasons why such as meeting new people - telling my story mostly - is so hard for me, maybe at least there's a possibility that what I'm experiencing now (outsie of the pain factor, if that's even possible to set aside and I'm not really sure it is) could possibly - or not - be eased by some sort of support worker person.
Boy it was hard to get through that sentence. Don't think I did very well.
That said, if you are one of those who seek NDIS support but have yet to gain approval, so reading my idea about a support worker to ease my situation may seem a touch bitter, please know that ... well, let's just say that in my case, all is not what it may seem.
